Why must heaven be so cruel ? i'm supposed to be in genting in a few hours, so happily. and yet hours before this trip which i've been looking forward to , things like this have to happen. ALWAYS. i hate it when things dig into my old wounds. cause they still hurt. i dunno why , but they still do.

I still remembered the times when you first got to know me, the times we spent together til the time we separated.
It was you who made me fall so deep.
But it was also you who hurt me so much.
So much til i dunno whether i should be friends with you or just hate you.

Now that you have a better half , i wish you all the best with her. at least she knows how to love you the correct way , and cherish you.

BABY, you once told me that you couldnt feel my 100%. This is the reason my dearest ; my heart have been numbed by previous wounds so much such that has forgotten how to love. BABY, i seek your understanding and forgiveness in this , i know i have hurt u in one way or another sometimes. But believe me , this love is true, i'll just have to learn to love fully again. I know i can do it , because i've learnt the art of letting go.

Baby , thank you so much for doing so much for me. i really really appreciate it. I Love You Baby , i really do.

Stayed over at bii's hse for the past 2 days. spammed and spammed his capt til lvl 129 liaos lols. i scan so many ahma for him then he diu dong ._. in the end he cannot reach his target of 135 then he say i noob spammer T.T ahahas but nvm , sugarpinks 162 lerhs ! one more lvl for concentration to be maxed ! XD

Today i pon work nehs >< so sians, suddenly got the feeling to quit work straightaway ;x aiyahs , but i will hold on for another 1 more mth then jiu no more NTUC for me ! but but but ! means no money for me also T.T

Yay , going genting in 1 week's time. kinda looking forward to the trip. although its just a neighbouring country, its been long since i last went overseas. and and and this time , baby's coming with us XD except for the conflict between bii and mum ....... hais .

Now i know , when u waited for something for so long and it didnt happen , the disappointment is kinda overwhelming. especially when that something means so much.

Just now came back from work, so fucking tired , went to slp straightaway. then now then wake up ><

Its been long since i last went to the beach. i think my soul needs that peace and serenity that the sea can bring....





iMy ; i really do.

I'm feeling so vexed ~ vexed ~ vexed !

I know its for my own good, but i just wan that one more month. just one more and i'll quit.

I really hope you can understand how i feel. meanwhile, do take care of yourself. love you.

Firstly, i wanna wish Chris a very happy 20th birthday ! and i would like to apologise for all the things that i've done to you. do find yourself someone that is worthy of your love, and someone who will cherish you. however, our friendship shall remain intact if you still treat me as a friend ><

Yesterday was baby's last day in NTUC. come to think of it, time really flies. i still remember the time when he came and find me whenever he was free, then joined NTUC with me and then now he's leaving. i kinda regretted letting him join NTUC because of wad he went through with the ppl there, but at least, i believe he was able to gain some experience that will help him throughout his life; although according to him, its a lap sap job ;x

Later pei-ing him to sch again ;D but then tuesday working ~ SO SIANS ><

There's this weird feeling inside of me. maybe its jealousy, inferiority complex or whatever. but i just cant get it to go away. & its driving me crazy.

I tried making you understand, but apparently you still dont. i wanna make you understand, but HOW? i cant help but feel us drifting apart slightly. we're quarrelling every other day. i prefer those days when everything was so sweet with zero quarrels.


i know i'm nt your type to start out with

i know i'm not perfect.

& i know i have so many reasons to make your love turn into hate

right now you would say that i cant feel your love for me

but baby i feel it, right from the bottom of my heart

the question now is can you feel my love for you

because if you cant, then i would have failed.

the reason why i'm feeling like this now is because

i'm afraid.

i'm afraid of losing you baby.

because i dun think i can survive another blow...


I'm really sorry to have caused you all the unhappiness since you've been with me. i love you, and i really hope that you can be happy everyday, with or without me. life is hard, i know, but baby, i will always be beside you to cheer you on and give you encouragement when things get hard.

Baby, take care of yourself, everything will have their solutions one day. stay strong and dont give up. i love you baby.

I made my resolutions. i really want to be the princess that you deserve baby. i will try my utmost best to fulfill them ;D

Maybe you were sent as a gift from above to teach me things that i was ignorant about. baby, thank you for being ever so patient with me. Thank you for all that you have already taught me. i will continue learning from you and we shall walk closer to our final destination ;D

Grats baby BoTtLeCaPt 117 lerhs ; jyjy 12x wors ! iLy Baby <3

This is hand-typed, from my heart, especially for you baby.
Happy 2nd Month My Dearest Baby ~

Remember that one day
I held your hands then i kissed your lips then i told you
Our love was meant to be
And always will forever give me that happiness i get from you just being there

I always see you when i close my eyes
You're on my mind so cant you see
I need you right here with me close by my side
This time's for sure
Gotta let you know my love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one i'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart, no
So baby don't let go

Even through the hard times
We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that i'm yours and that you're mine
That's how we got this far
Lets never be apart
Girl you're my queen
I'm here for you cause you're my everything

You always make me feel like everything's gonna be alright
With the things you do
Because its you the real true love of my life
This time's for sure
Gotta let you know my love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one i'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart, no
So baby don't let go

Oh baby,
You know i'd walk them miles
Climb mountains switch up styles
All i wanna do is be with you
Aint no matter what, where and how
We can both get down, yeah like that sound
Bump and grindin' perfect timin'
Let's dine and both be proud

Gotta take you on a joyride today
Making you stay true never hesistate
To make love, sure enough
You're the only one i'm ever thinking of
Just to hold you baby i can hardly wait
As we go through the motions damn its great
To make love, sure enough
We gotta take it to the end and thats what's up

You're the only one i wanna spend my whole life with
I know anywhere you are that's where i will call home
So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more

Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one i'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart, no
So baby don't let go

I'm nothing without you, i'm nothing without you girl
I'm nothing without you, i'm nothing without you girl
My love.

I was down with food poisoning with baby after eating that stupid meepok from hougang point on thurs night. I swear i'm never gonna eat at that stall again ! made me run to the toilet like 10+ times ? and worst still , that night stayed at baby's house ahma for whole night >< but baby's lvl 89 now, at least its worth it ;D

Yesterday went for dim sum with family and baby at woodlands derhs crystal jade. nice siol ! keke. then we went arcade to play after lunch, played DDR with sissy ;D then we went shopping! bought nothing from causeway point though. daddy suggested going to kbox when we went to take 161, but in the end decided against it when we have already reached hougang inter. all because of my stupid brother. zzz .

and so we went shopping at hougang mall with mummy, sissy, bro and baby instead. &&& ! i bought a new pink checkered dress ! omg its demn nice can ! thks to sissy whu saw it !

me and baby went to FutureMen to see his clothes ! finally see dao one HOTPINK shirt with nice designs sia ! then in the end no have baby's size ! emoooooo T.T he tried on a few more shirts but he dun like >< in the end nvr buy dao any ._.

went home then baby stayed over ;D watched Click ! demn funny sia ! baby luff til peng ;x keke ! but but but ! so sadddddd baby going home tonight ! nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ~

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