Promise. Cherish. Love <3

New Hamsters !

2010-06-17T01:06:00.003+08:00

I told mummy that i wanted hamsters, and guess what ! she bought for me so readily yesterday ! lol , its almost unbelievable can ? i thought i needed more time to talk her into it, but ta-da ! miracles happen again! ;D

I took a long long time to choose out my little furry friends, but i finally settled for 3 females, 2 of the same species and one different one. i gave the different species to my brother cause i like the other two better ;x

The 3 of them initially shared the same cage, but i transferred the different one into another cage and i think it looked so sad and lonely. i think i felt its sadness too. maybe next time i will give the hamsters time to interact so they will have a better state of health.

I'm now at biibii's house, tmr then will get to see them again, but i am already missing my two perecious babes !

Zoo Trip !

2010-06-12T22:17:00.003+08:00

Heh heh ~ finally went to the zoo today with my family, bii and his brother.

The morning was great , sunny and all , and we started heading to our destination at 8.20, reached at about 9.45?

We watched the "Rainforest Fights Back" performance and "Elephants Of Asia" . after the 2nd performance, it started raining heavily and we had to squeeze with the tons of ppl in a small shelter and it was so suffocating. mummy took out 2 umbrellas and we walked towards the food mall where luckily, we found seats.

That was where i ate the most expensive Nasi Briyani in my whole entire life - $8.90 , and we still bought 3 plates , one each for myself, bii and his brother.

After we had our lunch , the rain had stopped and we continue on our journey. but it wasnt long before the weather kicks in to spoil the day again. we had to, once again , seek refuge under a shelter at the frog exhibits. when the rain stopped again, we went to visit the cat country and the reptile house.

The kiddie place was the favourite part of the zoo trip today. i got to see horses in their stables, and pat a falabella horse !

After all these, we went back to the rainforest walk where i saw parrots, bats, mousedeers and lemurs. the lemurs were so tame that we were able to touch them.

Finally, we headed back to the entrance and had Ben and Jerry's ! and then went home ! shagged ~

First Day At Work :D

2010-06-10T13:00:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i worked , and i just get this feeling so weird that i didnt slp well the whole night.

But as it always turn out , everything was okay . People at workplace was nice and although bz, i managed to learn quite alot today.

Later meeting Biibii at choa chu kang , i hope. He doesnt know he work until wad time. If he's not tired and he's not working too late, its hurray cause i can meet him !

Torment.

2010-06-03T01:25:00.003+08:00

I made this choice, and so i have to live with the consequences no matter what. I thought it was going to be easy , but i was so wrong. The first 24 hours haven't even pass and i'm missing you already.

I guess i'm too used to seeing you every second; and now that i cant, i'm almost dying.

I MISS YOU.

Happy 9th Month :D

2010-06-02T09:17:00.001+08:00

Baby , HAPPY 9TH MONTH !

I know we've been through alot . Just keep the faith and keep this going kay ? we're almost there !

I shall be back to blogging ! ( I hope ) ;X

...

2010-03-24T11:33:00.002+08:00

Just came across my korkor derhs facebook recently, and then i saw his status saying that he's engaged already . its like so fast ? lols . i met him 5 years ago , when he was teaching in my secondary school as a relief teacher after his A's. and then i still rmbed how he showed me the blue stars and held my hand so gently that day . and then how i gave up on him, and how he ended up with this now- fiancee . in the blink of an eye , those 2 have been together for 5 years already , and it was recently that kor popped the question and she agreed. *sigh* it does give ppl the feeling that theý're inseparable and maybe a tinge of enviousness for us girls ? hahas .

Mid term tests are over , and finally i can hieve a sigh of relief , cause the past few days have been stressed out by the tests , especially my chem module . i fail that stupid module one more time and i am out of school ;(

Was supposed to go compass with bii and sinnee today during their lunch break , but i guess sinnee changed her mind ? lols . so i am stuck here at home while waiting for maple server to be up . maybe later in the afternoon i will go for some retail - therapy on my own , heh heh . :D

VAIO sux !

2010-03-09T12:14:00.002+08:00

Finally my stupid lappy agree to switch on. i've tried for 3 hrs yesterday and it just wants to be that stubborn making me so fucking dulan and i shouted at bii -.-

To make it up to him and to apologise for being so unreasonable , i made him breakfast and a packet of fresh milk and waited for him at his block to go to his school together. he was quite shocked to see me sitting at his void deck , but when he found out the reason why i was there, his smile could not escape my eyes ;D

So i accompanied him to school in that stupid crowded bus and sent him to his lab. after awhile , we went down to koufu for a drink cause i was really dying of thirst -.-

Was supposed to go to sony centre early today to fix my stupid lappy, but i guess its a bit late now and i have to postpone to tmr. so sians, that stupid centre is in town and bii refuses to go with me ! HUMPH .

Lonely.

2010-02-21T13:48:00.004+08:00

I just cant understand ppl sometimes. why must ppl be so hypocritical? why must ppl be so self centered? you used not to be like that. but ever since you got wad you wanted and everything went well for you, you changed; drastically. we used to be so close, sharing every little secret. and now, its like your existence is just to provoke me and bring me down. every word you say hides a meaning of despise. i dunno why you changed to that, maybe you think that you're superior to me in many ways because you get all the attention. in the past you would still defend me, but now, you're just going along with them because you go with the crowd. there's more ppl there so you want to be on the winning side. but stop and think girl, that if you were in my shoes, would you have done the same thing? if not, something similar? be honest to yourself. you wun know how i've defended you and spoke up for you when ppl said nasty things about you. and i guess you wun know that up till now, i refuse to believe all those said about you.

you said you were disappointed with me. what's there to be disappointed about? i'm just making a choice for myself. i'm just going over to my boyfr.'s to stay and spend more time with him. yes its true that he has the same surname as me, but who said i didnt care? didnt call means dun care? then if you didnt call me, so i assume you dun care about me? but thats not the case because i know you do. i guess you will never understand me. i know i changed alot, but i'm certain i'm not doing any crime and there's no wrong to my actions. i never severe my ties with all of you. i never did anything of that sort. but you will never understand, cause to all of you, not staying at home means i'm abandoning you. what nonsense.

and you. i thought you were the one who understands me. but sometimes i really think you dun understand me. everytime i express my own opinion, we're bound to quarrel. i'm so sick of all these. i thought even if i lost the whole world, i'll still have you. but you just wanna pit yourself against me. you know sometimes words that you say hurt me so much. i know they're said in a moment of anger, but still, i feel the pain.

i feel so lonely. i feel so alone in this big big world. hais.

Disappointments.

2010-02-08T23:59:00.003+08:00

Been staying over at bii's house for the past few days. been thinking about alot of things, and suddenly i realised i am very disappointed in myself. why so, you might ask. well, there's quite a number of reasons for my self disappointment.

Firstly, i made a promise to myself that if given a second chance to study again, i would cherish this chance. and yet again and again, i failed even to fulfil the simplest task of being a student - to be present for every lecture and tutorial. sometimes i think, i really dunno how lucky i am. i really dunno how to cherish things that are precious to me until i lose them.

Secondly, i made a promise that i would slim down before Chinese New Year. well, i cant say i didnt put in any effort, but i cant say i gave it my best either. sometimes i think, what's the point of torturing myself just for the sake of beauty, but in my heart i jolly well know that this is a realistic and practical world, and appearance does matter a lot to many.

Thirdly, i made a silent promise that i would treat bii better, because i know its really hard to find someone that cares and loves me so much. but i dunno why, everyday i would just pick something to quarrel with him. be it maple, or just small little things. i once told him that quarrels and breakups result from the improper way of handling conflicts. and now i see the way we are now, we really arent handling things well. mayb its me, mayb its him, mayb its us. i really dunno what else to do already. i tried to control my temper already. mayb its the tone of communicating that really pisses me off sometimes. and from all these quarrels, it made me realise that i have to think not only about what he did wrong, but what i did wrong as well. as the saying goes, it takes 2 hands to clap. similarly, it takes 2 persons to start a quarrel and the same 2 persons to end it. i've learnt that both parties are wrong in a quarrel, and the important thing is to forgive and learn from mistakes. i do hope i am not too late in realising this, not to late to save my crumbling relationship.

Fourthly, i agreed to let bii create a new character in maple. partly because of the talk that night, and partly because i want him to be happy. but i dunno why everytime he plays that char, he is not happy at all. i know its because of my unreasonable-ness, which i dunno why i always fucking want to be jealous. i dunno i'm jealous of what, i dunno wad i am unhappy about, but i just feel all these negative thoughts whenever he plays maple. maybe i'm going crazy. maybe my depression is back. hais ~

Bye Bye Maple.

2010-02-03T23:40:00.002+08:00

Dun tell me anything related to maple. i hate it. it has already taken from me my most beloved, shifting his attention from me to that stupid game. playing game may be for fun, but we all know what extends can people go to when they are too engrossed in the game.

I have already tried my best. but my advice still failed. you have your own thinking, your own opinion. then i shall give up fighting for wad i really want............................................

i just hope things were like last time.......

I HATE MAPLE.

EMO-ed.

2010-02-03T03:23:00.002+08:00

Feeling terribly lousy today. so many things happened. wad my family did, what happened between me and bii. my studies. all making me so fan ! SO FAN SO FAN ! arghhhhhhhhh feel like screaming out loud, on the other hand, feel like retreating to some place quiet where i can get my serenity back. everything is like going in fast-forward mode, bii is starting his FYP soon, and i start my dreaded chem lab next week.

I feel so rotten, just so useless, almost like i am a zombie everyday, doing the same old thing. sometimes i wonder, what is my purpose for living ? sometimes i feel like a wandering soul. hahs, guess ppl need some time to emo occasionally. and today's that day for me.

-EMO.

o.O

2010-01-28T11:01:00.002+08:00

Bii got into a fight again, but this time, virtually. yes, i dreamt of him being engaged in a fierce fight. it goes like this.

We were apparently holiday-ing in some foreign country that looks quite like malaysia in the dream. and i dunno where the actual scene took place, but it seemed like a hospital kinda place. and so we were sitting at the benches there, and dunno for wad reason, i think bii had a heated arguement with the burly guy sitting near there.

then soon after, a group of guys surrounded us, with the leader staring at bii. i then knew wad was happening; they were here for bii. in horror, i rushed to the leader and shouted something like 'NOOOOOO!' . the leader then looked at me and used a metal like clamp and gently clamped on the both sides of my head, saying 'You should know what to do if you dun want this to happen to you' . paralyzed by fear, i found myself quiet.

The leader then challenged bii to a fight. bii already anticipated this and took off his top, getting ready to take up all of the people there. bii launched his attacks first, giving 3 of the guys each a powerful kick on the nose which left them unable to retaliate for awhile. the leader, enraged with this, went behind bii and gave him a kick right at the place where guys are the weakest (you all should know what i mean) ;x bii's face didnt show much expression, but the impact of the blow was great, cause it sent bii on his knees.

The rest of the fight got more fierce, i think, but i cant really remember the rest of it. i only know wad's left of the fight was a badly injured bii, with his body covered in blood, and his injured toe distorted and bleeding like no one's business. when i went to help him up by holding his body, he was screaming in pain as my hands touched his fresh wounds. as i took a closer look at his injured toe, i dunno why, but i saw something like an extra appendage sticking out from his injured one. then i figured it out; his toe was broken. i didnt know what to do, but the first thing that came to my mind was to take him to the hospital as soon as possible.

I then remembered that we were in a hospital, so i quickly found a wheelchair and settled bii in it, then pushing him around the empty hospital like crazy, trying to find medical help.

And before i could see what happened next, i woke up. lols. what a weird dream ._.

Hurt Once Again .

2010-01-24T18:04:00.003+08:00

You can call me a sore loser. you can call me a bitch. you can call me anything. but yes, i hate criticisms. especially those harsh ones. i know people have different tolerance and opinion levels, so maybe all that was just nothing. but to me it hurts. a lot. other people might see me as a noob , but frankly i dun care wad others think. but wad really hurts me the most was that you agree with them; instead of giving me encouragement, you despised me as well.

I already told you alot of times to watch wad you say. but you will somehow always forget. wad i really want you to know and understand is that people are different in all sorts of ways and that we see things in all sorts of ways too. but wad's the point of saying sorry and thank you when after saying that, the same thing repeats all over again ?

I didnt say i was not at fault totally; i dun like to be angry for no reason as well. but there are just some things that i really dun like and cannot tolerate. that explains my behaviour in response to your comments.

I really hope that someday you would at least understand how i feel, instead of having the thought that i am unreasonable and wanting to pick a quarrel with you everytime. maybe its because of all these small unhappy things that make you think that i dun love you as much as you love me bahs.....

I Dun Understand...

2010-01-23T16:44:00.003+08:00

I dun mean to embarrass, just a mere question out of the casual. do guys behave in one manner before he got something, and then in another when he had gotten it? cause seriously, this is how i feel.

One moment you would think that he's the sweetest guy on earth, and then the next his movements make you wonder if he still love you as much as the time when he promised that he would take care of you for the rest of his life.

Maybe its sensitivity on my part, but sometimes i wished that things are as sweet as the time when we first met.....

School Reopens .

2010-01-09T23:15:00.002+08:00

In the blink of an eye , my half a year holiday is gone ! school will be starting on monday, and i'll be going back home from bii's place tmr afternoon.

I've not been at home for the past 3 weeks, nearing 1 month, cause i was staying at bii's house. cause bii promised mum that if she let me stay at his house during my holiday period, he will leave me alone to concentrate on my studies when school starts. now that my school is starting , bii have to mark his words lurhs.

Having stayed at his house for quite some time , i feel a kind of weird feeling knowing that i will be going back home. its a mixture of feelings which i dunno how to describe in words. my life has changed since i stayed over at his house, but now it will be changing again cause i have to adapt to the fact that i am not able to see him first thing in the morning when i wake up, and not being able to dedicate every second of my life to him.

On a happier note, i can say i have already quit maple, so it will be easier to concentrate on my studies in the new semester. also, i have successfully bidded for the modules that i want to take this sem, although there's still this burden of CM1121, the module which i failed 2 times ._.

Oh well, i'm just gonna try my best when school starts , and find back my old self who gives studies some priority.

Happy New Year 2010 !

2010-01-01T01:19:00.001+08:00

A brand new year, a brand new start !

Happy New Year to all ! May 2010 be a good year for everyone ! Loves ~

Bye Bye 2009 ~

2009-12-31T12:47:00.002+08:00

In the blink of an eye, today's the last day of 2009. as i recollect the memories, this year had indeed been a tough one for me.

Being together with you from nov last year all the way to chinese new year; i still rmb when u came over and pay your respects to my parents. and there was valentine's day, when you surprised me with a bouquet of flowers and a nicely wrapped gift. inside the gift was all the junk food that i loved, lying neatly in that box. and we went out for our couple date with sissy on that day , wearing our couple wear - green top + black bottom ;D
and there was still my birthday chalet, where all my maple friends gathered.
i rmb the things you taught me; i rmb the times we quarrelled. i rmb the tears i cried; i rmb the joy i felt. i always believed that we could last for a long time, but i guess you were just a passing phase of my life; someone sent to teach me wad i needed to know. although you brought me a great amount of pain, i dont regret meeting you.

As for the most important person in my life currently, its amazing how we met. you brought me to him, and you were also the one who brought me away from him. you were always there for me whenever i needed a shoulder; i still rmb that fateful night. during my darkest moments, you were there to comfort me. and slowly, our friendship turned into love. i have no idea how that happened, but it happened. and soon after that, everything about you and me fit together, just like a jigsaw puzzle. i know this is fate, i know its our destiny.

Baby, i know sometimes i am unreasonable, i know i throw tantrums easily, but believe me, i mean no harm. i know i dun often express it, but baby, i really love you alot alot alot alots !

I havent really got time to spend with my friends this year. i really wanna apologise to them for that. Jixuan, Xiuqin, Lee Tian, Ting Ting. my bestest friends. thanks for being there for me when i needed you. thanks for not giving up on me. i really appreciate us as a group of friends. lets go out someday okay? i love all of you ! x3

Working at NTUC has gained me friends and experience too. i learnt to deal with unfavourable situations and difficult people. and i also learnt the importance of self-responsibility. i may have left NTUC, but i will always rmb the experiences and lessons that i learnt there. not forgetting my dearest colleagues and supervisors =)

2009 is coming to an end, and all this will be a part of the past. i look forward to a brand new start in the new year, together with baby, my friends and my family. i hope for the best for everyone in the coming year ahead ! ;D

Lalala ~

2009-12-28T02:25:00.003+08:00

wahahahas . been MIA for quite some time ehs ? anyways i'm now bz with baby, audi and ... lets see, wad else ? shopping ? lols, wadever. 2010 is coming and i'm looking forward to it. well, kind of larhs , except mayb the school reopen part ._.

And and and. i've designed a new name. opinions PLS ! bii says it sounds horrible! T.T How does voxanne sounds ? how how how ? i think its nice T.T

Christmas is coming !

2009-12-22T11:42:00.002+08:00

Been staying over at bii's house for the past 2 days. and yes , xmas will be my last day of work at NTUC. my long awaited break from work will be just coming in a few days time ! and bii would be more happy with that i guess ;x

Ytd went to see my psychiatrist and he said that i am ready to start afresh in the coming semester. i must really buck up on my schoolwork and obtain better results or i will be out of NUS in no time x.x

Christmas is coming and i am still fretting over wad gifts shld i get for certain ppl x.x AHHHHHH ~

zzz.

2009-12-18T03:36:00.004+08:00

Dunno why , feel so zzzzzzzz . so sians so sians.. tmr working again ._. pon work for 3 days alr ._. i think NTUC will sack me before i even say goodbye to them lols.

Bii say i put lame lame stuff in my blog lols. cause he say i must put when we quarrel and that stuff. ._.

Sissy's chalet was two days ago , alot of her frens turned up sio. bii taught me how to play dai di after my 20 yrs of life. lols i know, i'm such a noob ._.

SIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN~

Fcuking Music Player .

2009-12-13T01:11:00.001+08:00

FUCK MIXPOD. I already like changed so many times the song it still doesnt display and play anything ! FUCK. so dulan . and now my blog's without a song. so zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

MIA-Mania ;x

2009-12-11T13:17:00.003+08:00

A-ha-ha-ha ! i know i have been MIA for sometime ;x okay okay i'll try to update more frequently ;x been bz with work larhs , everyday work 3-11pm . tiring nehs !

Hais, cant wait till i quit my job and spend more time with baby. also can train maple ._. and go shopping. ARGH. i really cant find time for myself. and and i have to go back see my doctor to let him write one letter saying that i am fit to resume studies next sem. so stressed up with everything. sians ~

Anyone wanna go out? just to chill or anything , feel so cooped up at home...

Happy 3rd Month Anniversary ;D

2009-12-03T12:09:00.009+08:00

Baby & i just passed our 3rd month ytd ;D

I woke up at 10 ytd , went to see doc about my stupid pimple face ._. baby was supposed to pei me go derhs , but i see him slping so soundly i really dun bear to wake him up sio ;x so in the end i went alone , and the queue was sooooooooo damn long . lols . the doc gave me some hormone thing to take orally, a facial cleanser that he recommended and a pimple gel. cost $85 in total ! but mummy pay so nvm ;x

After that went to dabao carrot cake for baby ;D then around 4 we went out to Plaza Sing to watch Ninja Assassin. wow , that show , i have to admit its nice , but kinda bloody. TOO bloody actually , and the blood is like so fake can . lols.

Walked around PS after movie then went to chomp chomp to eat my favourite dessert - DanHua ;D nice okie ! brings back nice memories ;D baby ate satay beehoon and char keow tiao there . and then we took some pics there too ;D

Baby says he looks like a panda x.x

This is so cute can ;x

iLoveMyBabyBoy ! x3

Went home after eating cause baby said he wanted to watch the basketball show. but i baddie went home jiu slp in the end i never pei him watch , and he was left alone for like 3 hours ? sorry baby T.T

Baby, i want my alot alot more months together with you ;D

Old Wounds Hurts The Most.

2009-11-24T02:44:00.004+08:00

Why must heaven be so cruel ? i'm supposed to be in genting in a few hours, so happily. and yet hours before this trip which i've been looking forward to , things like this have to happen. ALWAYS. i hate it when things dig into my old wounds. cause they still hurt. i dunno why , but they still do.

I still remembered the times when you first got to know me, the times we spent together til the time we separated.
It was you who made me fall so deep.
But it was also you who hurt me so much.
So much til i dunno whether i should be friends with you or just hate you.

Now that you have a better half , i wish you all the best with her. at least she knows how to love you the correct way , and cherish you.

BABY, you once told me that you couldnt feel my 100%. This is the reason my dearest ; my heart have been numbed by previous wounds so much such that has forgotten how to love. BABY, i seek your understanding and forgiveness in this , i know i have hurt u in one way or another sometimes. But believe me , this love is true, i'll just have to learn to love fully again. I know i can do it , because i've learnt the art of letting go.

Baby , thank you so much for doing so much for me. i really really appreciate it. I Love You Baby , i really do.

Keke XD

2009-11-17T13:58:00.002+08:00

Stayed over at bii's hse for the past 2 days. spammed and spammed his capt til lvl 129 liaos lols. i scan so many ahma for him then he diu dong ._. in the end he cannot reach his target of 135 then he say i noob spammer T.T ahahas but nvm , sugarpinks 162 lerhs ! one more lvl for concentration to be maxed ! XD

Today i pon work nehs >< so sians, suddenly got the feeling to quit work straightaway ;x aiyahs , but i will hold on for another 1 more mth then jiu no more NTUC for me ! but but but ! means no money for me also T.T

Yay , going genting in 1 week's time. kinda looking forward to the trip. although its just a neighbouring country, its been long since i last went overseas. and and and this time , baby's coming with us XD except for the conflict between bii and mum ....... hais .

Emo.

2009-11-14T23:53:00.002+08:00

Now i know , when u waited for something for so long and it didnt happen , the disappointment is kinda overwhelming. especially when that something means so much.

Just now came back from work, so fucking tired , went to slp straightaway. then now then wake up ><

Its been long since i last went to the beach. i think my soul needs that peace and serenity that the sea can bring....

iMy ; i really do.

Vexed.

2009-11-10T00:59:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so vexed ~ vexed ~ vexed !

I know its for my own good, but i just wan that one more month. just one more and i'll quit.

I really hope you can understand how i feel. meanwhile, do take care of yourself. love you.

Happy Birthday to Christopher ;D

2009-11-09T04:14:00.003+08:00

Firstly, i wanna wish Chris a very happy 20th birthday ! and i would like to apologise for all the things that i've done to you. do find yourself someone that is worthy of your love, and someone who will cherish you. however, our friendship shall remain intact if you still treat me as a friend ><

Yesterday was baby's last day in NTUC. come to think of it, time really flies. i still remember the time when he came and find me whenever he was free, then joined NTUC with me and then now he's leaving. i kinda regretted letting him join NTUC because of wad he went through with the ppl there, but at least, i believe he was able to gain some experience that will help him throughout his life; although according to him, its a lap sap job ;x

Later pei-ing him to sch again ;D but then tuesday working ~ SO SIANS ><

Suffocated.

2009-11-06T14:59:00.002+08:00

There's this weird feeling inside of me. maybe its jealousy, inferiority complex or whatever. but i just cant get it to go away. & its driving me crazy.

I tried making you understand, but apparently you still dont. i wanna make you understand, but HOW? i cant help but feel us drifting apart slightly. we're quarrelling every other day. i prefer those days when everything was so sweet with zero quarrels.

i know i'm nt your type to start out with

i know i'm not perfect.

& i know i have so many reasons to make your love turn into hate

right now you would say that i cant feel your love for me

but baby i feel it, right from the bottom of my heart

the question now is can you feel my love for you

because if you cant, then i would have failed.

the reason why i'm feeling like this now is because

i'm afraid.

i'm afraid of losing you baby.

because i dun think i can survive another blow...

I'm really sorry to have caused you all the unhappiness since you've been with me. i love you, and i really hope that you can be happy everyday, with or without me. life is hard, i know, but baby, i will always be beside you to cheer you on and give you encouragement when things get hard.

Baby, take care of yourself, everything will have their solutions one day. stay strong and dont give up. i love you baby.

Resolutions done.

2009-11-04T10:16:00.002+08:00

I made my resolutions. i really want to be the princess that you deserve baby. i will try my utmost best to fulfill them ;D

Maybe you were sent as a gift from above to teach me things that i was ignorant about. baby, thank you for being ever so patient with me. Thank you for all that you have already taught me. i will continue learning from you and we shall walk closer to our final destination ;D

Grats baby BoTtLeCaPt 117 lerhs ; jyjy 12x wors ! iLy Baby <3

Happy 2nd Month Anniversary Baby.

2009-11-02T17:07:00.006+08:00

This is hand-typed, from my heart, especially for you baby.
Happy 2nd Month My Dearest Baby ~

Remember that one day
I held your hands then i kissed your lips then i told you
Our love was meant to be
And always will forever give me that happiness i get from you just being there

I always see you when i close my eyes
You're on my mind so cant you see
I need you right here with me close by my side
This time's for sure
Gotta let you know my love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one i'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart, no
So baby don't let go

Even through the hard times
We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that i'm yours and that you're mine
That's how we got this far
Lets never be apart
Girl you're my queen
I'm here for you cause you're my everything

You always make me feel like everything's gonna be alright
With the things you do
Because its you the real true love of my life
This time's for sure
Gotta let you know my love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one i'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart, no
So baby don't let go

Oh baby,
You know i'd walk them miles
Climb mountains switch up styles
All i wanna do is be with you
Aint no matter what, where and how
We can both get down, yeah like that sound
Bump and grindin' perfect timin'
Let's dine and both be proud

Gotta take you on a joyride today
Making you stay true never hesistate
To make love, sure enough
You're the only one i'm ever thinking of
Just to hold you baby i can hardly wait
As we go through the motions damn its great
To make love, sure enough
We gotta take it to the end and thats what's up

You're the only one i wanna spend my whole life with
I know anywhere you are that's where i will call home
So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more

Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one i'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you my girl, forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart, no
So baby don't let go

I'm nothing without you, i'm nothing without you girl
I'm nothing without you, i'm nothing without you girl
My love.

Food Poisoning

2009-11-01T12:49:00.002+08:00

I was down with food poisoning with baby after eating that stupid meepok from hougang point on thurs night. I swear i'm never gonna eat at that stall again ! made me run to the toilet like 10+ times ? and worst still , that night stayed at baby's house ahma for whole night >< but baby's lvl 89 now, at least its worth it ;D

Yesterday went for dim sum with family and baby at woodlands derhs crystal jade. nice siol ! keke. then we went arcade to play after lunch, played DDR with sissy ;D then we went shopping! bought nothing from causeway point though. daddy suggested going to kbox when we went to take 161, but in the end decided against it when we have already reached hougang inter. all because of my stupid brother. zzz .

and so we went shopping at hougang mall with mummy, sissy, bro and baby instead. &&& ! i bought a new pink checkered dress ! omg its demn nice can ! thks to sissy whu saw it !

me and baby went to FutureMen to see his clothes ! finally see dao one HOTPINK shirt with nice designs sia ! then in the end no have baby's size ! emoooooo T.T he tried on a few more shirts but he dun like >< in the end nvr buy dao any ._.

went home then baby stayed over ;D watched Click ! demn funny sia ! baby luff til peng ;x keke ! but but but ! so sadddddd baby going home tonight ! nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ~

Unappreciated.

2009-10-28T23:35:00.003+08:00

Why is it always like that ? when i want to give my heart in helping someone, why does it always appear to them that i am doing something wrong? Is the something that i am doing for that person so insignificant that the 'not so right' part of it covers the whole damn purpose of my behaviour? i dunno why but it hurts. i just want so much to be appreciated; want so much of wad i'm doing to be understood. but i dunno why things always have to turn out this way...

Busy Busy Busy ; Tired Tired Tired.

2009-10-27T09:54:00.002+08:00

Went to hougang plaza de kbox on sat with mummy daddy and bro. i thought sissy going nehs , then in the end ps me ><

Nevertheless , i enjoyed myself . I know mummy&daddy are worried about my condition and wants to spend more time with me, that's why i didnt reject their suggestion. and so we were like crazy at kbox that day; like always . keke !

I met up with the school psychiatrist yesterday and he diagnosed me with Depressive Disorder. he also wrote me a letter for an application of leave of absence for this semester. which means that i dun have to go to sch this sem; my lessons will start next sem.

Bii came over my hse stay yesterday night & we played basketball at my hse nearby de bball court . Its been long since i played bball and sad to say, my shooting skills have de-improved. lols is there such a word ? ahhh , whatever ;x

Its really amazing wad a relationship can do to your health, both physically and mentally; be it broken or a perfect one. i hope i can find back my motivation to study once again.

Stupid Laptop.

2009-10-22T10:58:00.007+08:00

Havent been able to blog due to 2 reasons; one, i've been out with baby ;D and secondly, my stupid lappy died on me wtf. at first it cant detect the wireless at my hse, but now it cant even detect the internet when i plug in the ethernet wire. sians siol hais.

Enough of those stupid things, lets talk about my outing with baby on 20th oct ;D

I went to sch to fetch him from his lesson and then we went to his sch's only air-conditioned food court with his friend.

And keke, as usual took some pics ;x

After that, baby told me he had a craving for omelette ! so we went to J8 for that. the omelette demn nice norhs, plus it has that special meaning that only me&baby knows *winks*

I realised HongDou is quite photo-geeeeenic too ! XD

Daddy acting cute with son ;x

Baby took derh pics of me. He's a not bad photgrapher ehs ? keke .

Went to the arcade to play basketball and my favourite animal game after lunch. stayed at J8 for a while more then we left for Plaza Sing.

Reached there lerhs , went straight to the pet shop there to look at the hamsters. The breed that baby bought last time doesnt look very appealing to me, rather, i was more interested in the white ones; they looked much more adorable can ! hahs. we stood there watching those little animals for quite long before me&baby had the feel to buy one particular hamster which was slping. it just looked so cute lying there. lols. and so that is how Yoghurt became our daughter ;D

Say Hello to Yoghurt !

It was only after i was going home from baby's house that day that i realised i left my ring at the arcade at J8. it wasnt just any ring , it symbolises the fate that baby and i shared. i cabbed back to J8, but unfortunately i wasnt able to get it back. was demn emo that night. blamed myself for losing something so precious to me.

Headed to clarke quay to cool myself down , with tears on the train. baby tried to comfort me, but i just hated myself at that moment.

Reached clarke quay and we sat by the singapore river & talked. losing the ring was one thing, but sitting there with just baby alone was another. sometimes i myself is amazed at how baby can take away my sorrows so quickly. but i was glad he was there beside me that night. ty baby, iLy <3

I learnt something that night; to cherish before it is too late.

First Post !

2009-10-19T23:39:00.002+08:00

And so i shifted my blog here.

I wanna start anew , because ; you're my everthing now baby. iLy <3